hawaii '03 part two

i’m at my favourite bar. something is missing? but i feel very good right now. i bought a pack of camel menthol and smoked one. it was good but i will probably leave the pack with michael because i don’t want to start smoking again. the temperature change from inside this bar to outside is amazing. it’s only 38 but it feels colder. i talked to this girl that i have known of online for a while but never met in person for the first time. she is the kind of person who skips the awkward i-kind-of-know-who-you-are stage, which i appreciate. she lives in austin too and says that she doesn’t do much. like me. why is it that we are never happy? move from a shithole town to a liberal big city and still just want to move away. nothing is ever perfect. it’s very hard to make friends in austin when you aren’t going to college.

there is a piano in this bar and open mic night starts in 45 minutes. hmmm…… hand me that harpsichord and the toss me le mountaine infant choir.

go to hell and die there

10 Things You Want For Christmas:

1. a new camera
2. records/cds
3. speck macbook case
4. tomtom gps unit
5. coach sneakers
6. new glasses
7. clothes (dickies, american apparel)
8. money

9 Musicians/Bands You Love:

1. animal collective
2. xiu xiu
3. casiotone for the painfully alone
4. the streets
5. the avett brothers
6. the fiery furnaces
7. la roux
8. dan deacon
9. the smiths

8 Things You Do Everyday:

1. see
2. hear
3. feel
4. smell
5. taste
6. love
7. hate
8. wish

7 Things I Enjoy:

1. using my computer
2. making music
3. designing
4. meaningful conversations
5. driving
6. having a beard
7. touching

6 Things That Will ALWAYS Win Your Heart:

1. realism / atheism / intelligence
2. emotional honesty
3. niceness
4. similar interests
5. cuteness
6. weirdness

5 Favorites:

Movie: the royal tenenbaums

Song: currently, “you just haven’t learned it yet, baby” by the smiths

Book: the satanic bible

Food: sushi

Season: winter

4 Smells You Enjoy:

1. fruit
2. shampoo
3. skin
4. second-hand smoke

3 Places You Want To Go:

1. reykjavik
2. halifax
3. sydney

2 Holidays You Love:

1. christmas
2. my birthday

1 Person You Would Marry On The Spot:

1. jenna fischer

i'm taking out my plugs

so i stretched too fast and fucked up my ears. i’ve been trying desperately to get them back to normal for a week or so now, and while things haven’t gotten any worse, they haven’t gotten any better either.

replies to my forum posts say that i need to take everything out for six months. this is a very long time to me to be walking around with awkward holes in my ears. i think i will do three months… oh god. i will take it one month at a time. but when i start stretching again i am going to do it the right way: slow.

i’m pretty bummed about this. i loved my stretched ears and i was just getting to my goal size (1/2”) when problems occurred.

:( not happy.

who wants a google wave invite?

p.s. you have to include your email address. :)

yeah i know it’s weird
maybe i think about it
too much, maybe not